god like i am the opposite of a fish
a big transparent fat whiteclearfleshed fish
that is orange
i am also not furry
i'm a person
but different


when you're blown open like i am now
not like a fish
at all
not at one with the water or the flood or the dam
not like a pelican that eats the fish
first holding it in its mouth
not like a flower
because flowers arent full and warm like i am
not like a bird
although i can't feel my bones either
when you're blown open like i am now
other people know
and tell
and they stay away from blow
they know that they can't say anything to you

when you say things and other people say things
and when you're with people and other people are with people
it is just hooting and hollering like a pack of animals.
just rituals and patterns
speech is patterns
people are made of dna
which is patterns
and we hoot and holler
and i know im a person
but i'm doing what i'm supposed to do
when you're blown.